So my alone Saturday turned into a nice Saturday with a few of my girlfriends and then has turned into Drama!
My friend Monica and our friend Steve's girlfriend Jamie were in town today so we all went to grab a late lunch and then visit at my house. Well while we are at lunch I get a text message from my infamous friend Eric...you know the one that I have referenced before in blogs. Well he TELLS me that we are all going dancing tonight. First of all, no one ASKED me if I wanted to go and I'm certainly not going to be told that I am going by him! I replied with a no, I'm not going dancing tonight. Now instantly I am feeling an annoyance towards Dave...I'm feeling an I told you so coming on (Shannon should understand that one) and I'm also feeling a twinge of anger because I hate having plans just made for me and I especially hate when it deals with this group of friends. Sad to say but our friends are drama! It is a rare occasion if we go out and there is no drama...even if it's little I swear there is ALWAYS drama...so I ask Eric who is going and he gives me the list of couples that are going. Have I mentioned that Eric and his girlfriend Teela have Valentine's day plans tonight because he worked late on Valentine's day? No ok well now you know and you will understand where her annoyances are coming from. Eric then tells me that everyone is going and it would be nice if Dave and I went...like because our entire group of friends is going out we are not obligated to go. You know like when your mom said you had to invite that one friend because you just had to it was polite...that's what it reminds me of. And of course I am going to feel like a huge bitch because I really don't want to go...I wanted to see a movie tonight and I'm kind of a homebody...I'm not big on going out "dancing" mainly because there is always drama involved!!!
But I have turned the cheek...see normally I would take this immediately out on Dave and ASSUME that he was the one that had most part in it...he hasn't text messaged me yet to say anything. I wrote Eric and said does Dave even want to go or did you just tell him he was going too? He of course responded that he wanted to go if I did...that translates into if you don't go everyone will think you are a bitch keeping Dave from his friends. Well if Dave really wanted to go, he can go...I'll stay home and avoid the drama. But back to the cheek turning. Because Dave hasn't written me I'm NOT going to take this out on him. I'm not going to be angry with him when he walks in the door and I'm not going to give him attitude. Instead I will just be nice. Now Eric's car is at our house and he is going to come in and try to tell me that I am going and beg us to go...HE might get attitude but not Dave. Because I know that this is all coming from Eric. It was Jamie's idea to go dancing and she hadn't even made solid plans yet. Eric just heard the word or maybe Steve said we were thinking about going dancing tonight and Eric then took it upon himself to invite everyone and tell us all we were going.
So I am proud of myself that I have made a conscious effort to not take it out on Dave. And if he REALLY does want to go and it's not just Eric talking for him then i will be more than happy to consider going. I just really don't feel like the drama...
Even Teela is upset and she swears she isn't going...which Eric has ruined their night and I think that's sad. She should be more important than dancing, but we shall see what happens! If I do go and there is good drama...please expect a GREAT posting in the morning!
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Alone on a Saturday
While Dave is out golfing today I cleaned the house. Not just like you know the weekly cleaning...like go through the cupboards and muck them out and then sort all the laundry and do the complete cleaning with scented candle to top it off. But today I decided when I was getting ready to mop the floors that I swear they are never clean. No matter what I use, no matter how hard I scrub, they never look clean. I think part of that is because of the type of flooring we have...it's like a funky linoleum I don't know. So today I went to my beloved Target and bought a Swiffer Wetjet. Oh yeah their commercial got me. Usually commercials don't make me want to go out and try/buy their products. But this commercial did. Want to know why?? On their commercial they show two different people mopping their floors. One with a mop and bucket and one with the Swiffer Wetjet...well then they let their kids loose in what must be brand new white socks and the kid on the mop and bucket floor still has gross stuff all over his feet...like the floors still wet and he picked up the nasty dirty water! However, the Swiffer Wetjet floor made his brand new white socks look the same. Oh yeah I ran right out and bought one!
I came home to use it and I will tell you it smells so wonderful in my house. I have yet to give it the white sock test, but when I was doing the bathroom I saw some left over wet stuff on the floor that had that nasty dirty water look...I cursed the commercial and me for buying something on an impulse for a silly reason, BUT...in the end...my floors do look much cleaner than they did with the mop and bucket! So maybe it was a good purchase!
See why I have no need for alone time? I don't do something for me I freaking clean!
I came home to use it and I will tell you it smells so wonderful in my house. I have yet to give it the white sock test, but when I was doing the bathroom I saw some left over wet stuff on the floor that had that nasty dirty water look...I cursed the commercial and me for buying something on an impulse for a silly reason, BUT...in the end...my floors do look much cleaner than they did with the mop and bucket! So maybe it was a good purchase!
See why I have no need for alone time? I don't do something for me I freaking clean!
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Grey's Anatomy and what were they thinking??
Ok I just finished watching Grey's anatomy and I cannot believe what happened!!!! I don't know if anyone is an avid watcher of the show that reads this besides Shannon, but oh my god can they seriously kill off the main character????? I actually went through and tried to find the spoiler for next week and the best I can find is that she does die like it shows but that she is quickly revived! OMG is it Thursday yet????? I have to know I have to know I have to know what is going to happen next week!
Yes I'm an addict! I am aware but that's ok...I have a problem and I can admit it haha!
If anyone watches this show I need some answers here soon! I want to hear some of your opinions if you do watch the show!
Yes I'm an addict! I am aware but that's ok...I have a problem and I can admit it haha!
If anyone watches this show I need some answers here soon! I want to hear some of your opinions if you do watch the show!
Student Teaching part annoying
So student teaching is getting a little better. Now just the little things annoy me. Her teaching instruction is on her way to getting a little better...but it's still not that great. I figure that she is just learning and that's ok she shouldnt' be close to perfect yet. HOWEVER, when I tell her something, she should probably take that into account and try to make things better. So the other day I tell her that she needs to not talk to the students and have them talking while other kids are taking a test (it's a specific district test, not just like a regular math test). She gets all huffy and argues back with me...I blew up. I had had enough of the attitude when I ask her something or tell her how something is supposed to be done in the classroom.
So today her supervisor comes in again. I am talking to her in the back and she is telling me how she thinks that my student teacher isn't doing that well and she is really appreciative that I am working with her so much and that she is going to keep a close eye on her becuase she is really sketchy in her teaching and in her lesson plans. Ok so someone other than me is seeing these things. The supervisor actually talked to my principal about her...and that's not good because he doesn't think that she is doing a good job. That is good. today her lesson actually went pretty well. She took some advice I gave her and did a nice job. But the supervisor only wrote down how wonderful she was! HELLO WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ALL THE THINGS THAT SHE WAS TELLING ME THAT SHE NEEDED TO WORK ON???? So I had to be the bad guy again and tell her again everything that her supervisor really said she needed to work on and I also was the only one who wrote anything down about the lesson that she could improve on.
I don't sugar coat shit. I don't have time for people to mess up the hard work that I do with my kids. I don't by any means think I am wonder teacher and teach perfect...but I know that I do a good job. that's why my principal asked me to take on a student teacher because he knew that I would not allow her to become anything that the best. He is a new principal at our school this year and he is great. He really backs his teachers and does a good job at our school. His exact compliment was that I have a very direct way of teaching...if I come to a wall, I don't let it stop me...I plow right through it and I drag each kid right behind with me so that they are all up to speed. That's a really nice compliment...he tells me I do a good job, but if I asked he would also tell me something that I could improve on. That's how I am I seek out some kind of constructive criticism so that I can improve and become that wonder teacher.
I hope I can pass that on to my student teacher...and I hope that her supervisor starts writing down the things she needs to work on instead of just telling me that she is nervous about how her teaching is going!
So today her supervisor comes in again. I am talking to her in the back and she is telling me how she thinks that my student teacher isn't doing that well and she is really appreciative that I am working with her so much and that she is going to keep a close eye on her becuase she is really sketchy in her teaching and in her lesson plans. Ok so someone other than me is seeing these things. The supervisor actually talked to my principal about her...and that's not good because he doesn't think that she is doing a good job. That is good. today her lesson actually went pretty well. She took some advice I gave her and did a nice job. But the supervisor only wrote down how wonderful she was! HELLO WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ALL THE THINGS THAT SHE WAS TELLING ME THAT SHE NEEDED TO WORK ON???? So I had to be the bad guy again and tell her again everything that her supervisor really said she needed to work on and I also was the only one who wrote anything down about the lesson that she could improve on.
I don't sugar coat shit. I don't have time for people to mess up the hard work that I do with my kids. I don't by any means think I am wonder teacher and teach perfect...but I know that I do a good job. that's why my principal asked me to take on a student teacher because he knew that I would not allow her to become anything that the best. He is a new principal at our school this year and he is great. He really backs his teachers and does a good job at our school. His exact compliment was that I have a very direct way of teaching...if I come to a wall, I don't let it stop me...I plow right through it and I drag each kid right behind with me so that they are all up to speed. That's a really nice compliment...he tells me I do a good job, but if I asked he would also tell me something that I could improve on. That's how I am I seek out some kind of constructive criticism so that I can improve and become that wonder teacher.
I hope I can pass that on to my student teacher...and I hope that her supervisor starts writing down the things she needs to work on instead of just telling me that she is nervous about how her teaching is going!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Valentine's Day
Yes I am aware that I have been away for a few days. We had our academic science fair at our school last night and that meant that I was at school for 13 hours yesterday! Yeah I came home and missed all my favorite shows because I fell immediately asleep!
Anyway on to today...it's Valentine's Day. Most would think I just LOVE this holiday. Not so much. 4 years ago, my old boyfriend, Jonathan, lost his little brother, Nicholas. He was only 13 and he died of pneumonia. He had down syndrome so part of his little immune system was already not up to shape, but still...if Winnemucca had any decent doctors at the time, it wouldn't have gone from him being short of breath at 4 to dead at 9. So for the last 4 years, Valentine's has sort of been spoiled for me...maybe spoiled is not the right word. It's just changed and I don't think of all the lovey things on that day...instead I think of Nicholas.
This works well for Dave. He of course isn't (well he wasn't he did a good job this year) big on the holiday because he didn't like all that mushy gushy type of stuff. So I always let him know that pink roses are always safe and if nothing else just don't forget the card. This morning he woke me up to give me my gift. Let me give you a preface to this morning. We had been talking about those boxes of chocolates that you can find at like Wal-Mart. I HATE those things and I said I would never ever want one of those because first of all it's not the good chocolate that I like...it's the yucky chocolate filled with yucky middle stuff. Again I would never want one. So you can just picture my face this morning when he handed me a box of those. Now I know it's the thought that counts but how many times do you have to say that you HATE those things for him to get the point? It was 6 in the morning and I didn't have my nice face on so I said am I supposed to open this?? Oh wait did I mention that he decorated the top with fuzzy pink fabric that was left over from the stocking he made me at Christmas and he wrote Happy Valentine's Day Darlin on it? He also glued a little bobble head jackalope to the top because of a joke we have that jackalopes don't exist and one morning in the shower I was bobbing my head whistling and I thought he was going to die of laughter...so he found a bobble head of a jackalope and glued it on there. Cute, thoughtful, yes...I'm still thinking that isn't going to make up for the shitty chocolate inside!! He said yeah you are supposed to open it! So I do and a starbuck's gift card pops up like a pop up card...inside there was no shitty chocolate...instead he had filled it with reese's peanut butter cups, pink and white M&Ms and the pop up starbuck's card. He goes I even tasted the chocolates that were in there and you are right they are gross haha!! So that was a very cute thoughtful gift and I was really surprised that he thought to get me that starbuck's gift card...he knows I like it but for him to think of that was really sweet. Plus I'm sure my candy will be gone by the end of tonight because really those are my favorites. Even his card was cute and somewhat romantic. I was expecting a really funny card with a nice little blurb from him on the inside because he doesn't do mushy gushy. My card was way funny and I just wrote something nice...his card was nice and he wrote something nice. So then of course I felt like I was inadequate! I gave him a huge bag of peanut M&Ms because those are his favorite and I also got him two new movies because he loves movies. He really seemed to like them but his gift was much more thoughtful.
All in all it was a good start to an ok day of the year for me. While I'm not with Jonathan anymore and I am able to have a "normal" Valentine's Day again because my partner isn't suffering from the same pain of that loss, I still carry that with me because I was at the hospital in Winnemucca when it happened and I had to call all over Reno to find Jonathan and then wait for him to make that drive. So today I will think of Nicholas and appreciate the great boyfriend that I have.
Anyway on to today...it's Valentine's Day. Most would think I just LOVE this holiday. Not so much. 4 years ago, my old boyfriend, Jonathan, lost his little brother, Nicholas. He was only 13 and he died of pneumonia. He had down syndrome so part of his little immune system was already not up to shape, but still...if Winnemucca had any decent doctors at the time, it wouldn't have gone from him being short of breath at 4 to dead at 9. So for the last 4 years, Valentine's has sort of been spoiled for me...maybe spoiled is not the right word. It's just changed and I don't think of all the lovey things on that day...instead I think of Nicholas.
This works well for Dave. He of course isn't (well he wasn't he did a good job this year) big on the holiday because he didn't like all that mushy gushy type of stuff. So I always let him know that pink roses are always safe and if nothing else just don't forget the card. This morning he woke me up to give me my gift. Let me give you a preface to this morning. We had been talking about those boxes of chocolates that you can find at like Wal-Mart. I HATE those things and I said I would never ever want one of those because first of all it's not the good chocolate that I like...it's the yucky chocolate filled with yucky middle stuff. Again I would never want one. So you can just picture my face this morning when he handed me a box of those. Now I know it's the thought that counts but how many times do you have to say that you HATE those things for him to get the point? It was 6 in the morning and I didn't have my nice face on so I said am I supposed to open this?? Oh wait did I mention that he decorated the top with fuzzy pink fabric that was left over from the stocking he made me at Christmas and he wrote Happy Valentine's Day Darlin on it? He also glued a little bobble head jackalope to the top because of a joke we have that jackalopes don't exist and one morning in the shower I was bobbing my head whistling and I thought he was going to die of laughter...so he found a bobble head of a jackalope and glued it on there. Cute, thoughtful, yes...I'm still thinking that isn't going to make up for the shitty chocolate inside!! He said yeah you are supposed to open it! So I do and a starbuck's gift card pops up like a pop up card...inside there was no shitty chocolate...instead he had filled it with reese's peanut butter cups, pink and white M&Ms and the pop up starbuck's card. He goes I even tasted the chocolates that were in there and you are right they are gross haha!! So that was a very cute thoughtful gift and I was really surprised that he thought to get me that starbuck's gift card...he knows I like it but for him to think of that was really sweet. Plus I'm sure my candy will be gone by the end of tonight because really those are my favorites. Even his card was cute and somewhat romantic. I was expecting a really funny card with a nice little blurb from him on the inside because he doesn't do mushy gushy. My card was way funny and I just wrote something nice...his card was nice and he wrote something nice. So then of course I felt like I was inadequate! I gave him a huge bag of peanut M&Ms because those are his favorite and I also got him two new movies because he loves movies. He really seemed to like them but his gift was much more thoughtful.
All in all it was a good start to an ok day of the year for me. While I'm not with Jonathan anymore and I am able to have a "normal" Valentine's Day again because my partner isn't suffering from the same pain of that loss, I still carry that with me because I was at the hospital in Winnemucca when it happened and I had to call all over Reno to find Jonathan and then wait for him to make that drive. So today I will think of Nicholas and appreciate the great boyfriend that I have.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
The Grocery Store -- My Enemy
OK so I have a slight issue with going to the grocery store. Actually I absolutely hate it. Aside from trying to fight the people, I hate spending that much money all at one time on food. I can remember going grocery shopping with my family every Saturday morning and I can remember spending on the average $100 a week for three people. That's $400 a month!!
We go grocery shopping once every 3-4 weeks. Since there is just the two of us, what we get at the grocery store usually lasts us right about a month. Now we spend anywhere from $140-$160 every time we go. Dave is totally fine with this. I on the other hand turn into cranky mccrank pants and just detest everything he puts in the cart. I refuse to shop without a list and then when something is placed in the cart that is not on the list I get annoyed. Guess who puts 90% of that stuff in the cart...yeah ME! No matter how much I stay to my list, I always put something else in the cart. We went to Winco today and we spent $152. I was shocked considering that we didn't get as much as we usually do and we still spent the same amount of money. I cringe literally every time a checker hits the total button and Dave just laughs. Let me break this down for you...
Today's trip: $152 and some change
That is an average of $40 per week (yeah I rounded up)
That is an average of roughly $6 per day for two people to eat.
Yeah I am aware that spending that much money for a month's worth of groceries really isn't that much. I'm sure that other families spend much more...especially families with children. I either need to shop more often so that I don't see such a high total and I feel better because I FEEL like I didn't spend that much when in all reality I'm probably spending more or I just need to get over my weird quirk. I seriously tried to get out of going to the grocery store today...I dread it more than my gynecologist and I really hate that place!
Yes I am aware that I am weird...
We go grocery shopping once every 3-4 weeks. Since there is just the two of us, what we get at the grocery store usually lasts us right about a month. Now we spend anywhere from $140-$160 every time we go. Dave is totally fine with this. I on the other hand turn into cranky mccrank pants and just detest everything he puts in the cart. I refuse to shop without a list and then when something is placed in the cart that is not on the list I get annoyed. Guess who puts 90% of that stuff in the cart...yeah ME! No matter how much I stay to my list, I always put something else in the cart. We went to Winco today and we spent $152. I was shocked considering that we didn't get as much as we usually do and we still spent the same amount of money. I cringe literally every time a checker hits the total button and Dave just laughs. Let me break this down for you...
Today's trip: $152 and some change
That is an average of $40 per week (yeah I rounded up)
That is an average of roughly $6 per day for two people to eat.
Yeah I am aware that spending that much money for a month's worth of groceries really isn't that much. I'm sure that other families spend much more...especially families with children. I either need to shop more often so that I don't see such a high total and I feel better because I FEEL like I didn't spend that much when in all reality I'm probably spending more or I just need to get over my weird quirk. I seriously tried to get out of going to the grocery store today...I dread it more than my gynecologist and I really hate that place!
Yes I am aware that I am weird...
Friday, February 09, 2007
Alone Time
Alone time. This is something I have no concept of. I don't need it, I don't crave it, therefore I don't understand it. I've had lots of people tell me that they enjoy their time away from their significant other. Yeah me too it's called work. That is my break from him and that's good enough for me. Now I won't say that sometimes when Dave is out hunting with his dad or doing something in Fernley that I don't enjoy my time to myself. But it's not something that I crave and feel like I need to tell Dave um I'm going to have alone time. I guess I don't need to make it.
Dave needs alone time. And when he says alone time, he really means that. It's not like he means code for oh I want to hang out with my boys or anything like that. It truly means he needs some time to himself or at most it means he is going to Fernley and will spend time with his dad. He has been cranky this week for some reason that I dont' get. This morning I sent him a text and said what is your deal. He informed me that he was having that feeling of needing to be alone and I just got annoyed. Like I said because I don't have those cravings or needs I don't get it. This means that your alone time needs an explanation in my world and I need to know EXACTLY why you want time to yourself. Did I do something to annoy you, are you unhappy with me? What is the deal here? I don't accept the answer I don't know. I get very annoyed at that answer and it just prolongs any possible fights that have started or will start in the near future due to that answer. Of course he says that he doesn't know I didn't do anything blah blah blah but because I don't understand this need I need a clear explanation.
So any thoughts on the concept of alone time? Am I just a nut because I don't have the need for it or is he really needing alone time because he is unhappy with something?
Dave needs alone time. And when he says alone time, he really means that. It's not like he means code for oh I want to hang out with my boys or anything like that. It truly means he needs some time to himself or at most it means he is going to Fernley and will spend time with his dad. He has been cranky this week for some reason that I dont' get. This morning I sent him a text and said what is your deal. He informed me that he was having that feeling of needing to be alone and I just got annoyed. Like I said because I don't have those cravings or needs I don't get it. This means that your alone time needs an explanation in my world and I need to know EXACTLY why you want time to yourself. Did I do something to annoy you, are you unhappy with me? What is the deal here? I don't accept the answer I don't know. I get very annoyed at that answer and it just prolongs any possible fights that have started or will start in the near future due to that answer. Of course he says that he doesn't know I didn't do anything blah blah blah but because I don't understand this need I need a clear explanation.
So any thoughts on the concept of alone time? Am I just a nut because I don't have the need for it or is he really needing alone time because he is unhappy with something?
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