Monday, February 16, 2009

Time for me

Clearly since my last post was about Christmas I have sucked at blogging. I haven't even done a great job of keeping up on the Tummy Tuck blog and even if I sucked at blogging over here I've always been good about blogging there! I don't know what the deal is and I can't seem to get out of my funk! I haven't even read everyone's blog and I've spent the better part of the last hour trying to speed read and catch up on everyone's!

That being said it's time to make time for me. Lately I have been reading a lot and I think that's taken away from my computer time. I have to say it's been nice and I've really enjoyed it. I've been plowing through the Janet Evanovich books and trying to catch up for when the new book comes out. This has left me with a great sense of accomplisment because I've been reading so much and unfortunately a sense of always looking over my shoulder because I've read so many of the books I'm pretty sure there is a bad guy lurking around the corner and I lack Stephanie Plum's kick ass bounty hunter skills! Seriously today there was a car driving slowly around our block and I was inclined to turn the car around and follow to make sure they weren't weirdos on the block!

While the reading has been nice, I have missed blogging. I have missed reading my favorite blogs and sharing things on mine. Since the wedding is over I felt like there was nothing to write about. But before the wedding, I had stuff to write about so I don't know what happened. I never even blogged about our Honeymoon! Last week I wanted to write about the awesome cakes I baked for my class. It was Abraham Lincoln's 200th birthday and I made and cake and decorated it like the Emancipation Proclamtion! The kids had an absolute blast and I suddenly became the coolest third grade teacher ever!

For the first time ever since I started dating Dave he sent me flowers. That's all I wanted for Valentine's day. He got me flowers one other Valentine's day 3 years ago and I will never forget because he walked into my classroom carrying six pink roses and a box of bullets (not his brightest moment walking into a school with a box of bullets but it had a purpose) and one of my students turned around and said "It's about time you showed up with the flowers!" The only other time he has ever given me flowers was on our one month anniversary in November. He was being all cute and got a nice card and a single rose. But never has he sent me a bouquet of flowers. Finally he did this year and they were beautiful! I dont' like flowers all the time, but on that day they were perfect!

I guess lately I've also had that feeling of being the only friend without a baby! I'm not exactly ready to have a baby just yet, but if it happened it wouldn't be the end of the world. The other day we were at school and three of my teacher friends were talking...one has a 3 year old, one has a 2 year old and a 7 month old and then one has a 4 month old. They were talking about the 3 year old's birthday party and how the other two missed it. But they were having all this mom talk and I totally felt left out. Chrissy immediately sensed this and was like aww Ang when are you going to start having babies so you can join in on this...she knows when I clam up and when she got back to her classroom she called and said I'm so sorry...that was such an awkward moment because the one teacher just started talking about it and we got all wrapped up...I'm sorry! Great now I'm making my friends feel like they can't enjoy their own offspring for fear they will hurt my feelings! Great...now I'm THAT friend!

Like I said it's not that I want a baby tomorrow...or even within a year for that matter. I guess it just feels like it's the next thing to do (not to mention most people went from saying so when's the date for the wedding to when are you going to have babies?)...we got married now we have babies. All my friends were pregnant around me...most of them have now had their babies with the exception of my one friend who is frantically trying not to go into early labor! Then I got to watch all of my blogging friends have their babies and I just loved watching them write about how passionately they couldn't wait to become mothers for the first time or how they couldn't wait to see their son be a big brother.

So anyway...that jumbled up post being written...I'm going to get better at blogging again. I'm going to get out of this funk, take time for me and get back to writing.

2 comments:

Jayla'sMommy said...

So I kind of quit and you decide to come back, huh?
I always loved reading your blog and I will definitely continue reading it even though I said goodbye to the blogger world for now.

Oh and about the baby thing, as amazing as being a mom is, it is also a lot of work, especially when you have a little girl who has been up with a fever and screaming for the last three nights because she's teething. As much as I love being a mom, it's definitely not all fun and games so enjoy being able to sleep in and do whatever you want whenever you want for as long as you can ;))

MarvelousMOM said...

Welcome back! I thought you had given up blogging for good!!!

I remember being in your position and still would be if it weren't for having two step kids. Even then, people see me different. You will have kids when the time is right for you and Dave. For now, enjoy your time with Dave and freedom, and SLEEP! :)

That is sweet he sent you flowers. Good man!